Saturday, May 19, 2007
lame lame lame lame.
i feel like my blog is getting lamer by the minute. eversince i transferred from my old blog.
it's STUPID, because the only major thing i changed was my url. the layout shouldn't affect anything.
but then, i think i'm a psychologically challenged person, so that might mean that the outlook of my blog affects my blogging.
ok, that was a stupid theory.
i feel like i have to go by these stupid rules to make a good posts. ayan nanaman ako. my perfectionism is getting in the way of me, living my life.
but this is HOW i live my life!!!
i WORK great under pressure. i THRIVE under pressure. i EAT pressure for breakfast.
but this kind of pressure. i don't think it's working.
my mind is OVERWHELMED with my thoughts. grabe. i feel like my heart (ironically) is going to burst.
RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!
everything's overwhelming. affections, ideas, wants, needs, pressures.by GOD! can't i live a thought-free life?
i really just should get a new layout for myself. but it would be unfair if i placed myself first when other people asked first.
i'm running out of inspiration! putakte.
kakabili ko nga ng bagong cd ng photoshop cs2 chaka illustrator cs. wala naman kwenta. i don't know how to use illustrator (i have to find time pa... it takes MONTHS! hahaha.)...and i'm still more comfortable using adobe elements compared to cs2.
it takes time nga raw.
i can't wait to make my own vector images!!! HEEHEEHEE evil laugh.
DUN SA MGA HUMINGI NG LAYOUT PERO WALA PA DIN.
Hear ye, hear ye. i ask you to forgive thee.
i'm sorry, but my mind is burned out. nahihirapan ako.
nappressure ako kasi baka ayaw niyo
na ng layout niyo if i don't give it to you kagad.
tapos you might not like your layout pa.
mahirap manghula noh.
chaka i want it to be good.
so PLEASE give me time.
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on a more serious note...
things i should.
- be able to let go.
- be able to express.
- be able to free myself.
- be able to make great layouts.
- be able to be stress-free.
- be able to take copycat-ism as the highest form of flattery.
- be able to finally take those drum lessons.
- be able to shop for school things.
- be able to decide on what to do with this...ARGH!
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i am so all over the place.Labels: babbles, lame, rants
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