Thursday, January 31, 2008

can we chill?
Watching? Can We Chill - Ne-yo @ YouTube

HAHAHAH. This is one of those videos. By those videos, I pertain to the b*tch videos I so fondly pertain to. I love this song, and knowing Ne-yo, there couldn't be any video of his song without the sexy babes. But I guess there's a little bit too much on this one, with babes sprinkled everywhere, appearing here and there...kahit sa loob ng kuweba. And surprise surprise, all of them are in *shock(not.)* BIKINIS!

By God, don't men believe in leaving a little something-something to the imagination???

And then there was one scene were Ne-yo was just staring at the chick's boobs. Man, they're just mounds of flesh. What is it that gets dudes so excited by them anyways? Is that something in-born? Something that came along with their ding-alings? (also known as tralala and the happy place.)

But I still love Ne-yo, though. He's so sleek and suave and sexy and ang galing gumalaw. Yihee, nakakakilig. I would love to meet someone who could move like that. And besides, he dresses well.


The video takes place in some remote place, I'd bet. Somewhere like Ibiza or in Africa. Sao Paolo? :)) Cabo san Lucas? Mexico? Brazil? Basta there are beaches, and then those streets that you seem to see in videos all the time, and then there's a freaking cave and then he parties. He parties and then he meets the girl in the cave (she's insanely pretty though) and *surprise surprise* this little lady is decked in a bikini top and a mini-skirt so short, you could barely see it (tama ba yun?).

Sana man lang binigyan nilang kuwento yung kanta. Pwede naman eh.

Just see the freaking VIDEO to know what I'm talking about.

Let me share something.

I've got this habit of thinking up music videos of my favorite songs. Of course, the songs have to have something to work with. Something unique, and with a story and stuff like that.

Which I guess, is a reason why there is a lack of good and unique music videos everywhere. People don't have anything to work with anymore. Almost everything sounds the same nowadays, I wonder how people know who sang/did which.

So back to my story.

So a while ago, I was lying in the bed and listening to my iPod (I am in a ultra-high risk of going DEAF someday). And then Can We Chill played, and then suddenly, I was imagining the music video (I was imagining an alternate music video for The Pretender - The Foo Fighters before that.) I imagined him to be in a party, and then the opening scene focuses on him entering the club and...

...and this is not something unique, but I like it. :P

...and I can totally imagine everything now. The purple lights, the darkness, the party, what Ne-Yo is wearing (all white) and then...hmm. I think I forgot to imagine how the girl should look like. Probably someone with long hair. And dark skin, and then she's wearing something elegant...and sexy, dapat lang.

And then ayun. They do this kind of "chase" thing. Ne-Yo makes eye contact with the girl, who's sitting in a bar, and then he makes a go for her, but then someone suddenly passes and he loses her. So he looks for her. And then he finds her and they do stuff and whatever.

Okay. That was totally unoriginal, but that was the only thing I could think of. Eh can we chill eh. It's a night song, not a day song. Oh, it could probably work as a beach song.

I should stop now.


Have you seen Take You There (Sean Kingston)'s video? By God, don't even let me get started on that one. It's such a bad video for such a nice song.

Since when did I start criticizing videos??? :)) And since when did I know how?


Happy Birthday to Angelique's pader!!! Woo.


edit// @ 5:38 pm, now watching RUMOR HAS IT.

You can get sterile from being kicked in the nuts?

Oh wow.


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Wednesday, January 30, 2008

feeling quite talkative today...
Listening to:
Carousel - Buckcherry

I love this song. It's got this chill factor by it. Well, atleast until the chorus, when Josh Todd's voice becomes all hirap and everything. But besides that, I love it. :) Like hell, I'm starting to appreciate songs despite their bad lyrics (Buckcherry wasn't known for their poetic lyrics after all.)

By the way, saw Josh Todd @ Jay Leno the other night. Maan, he looked OLD and tired. Not looking so hot anymore, huh. I still like his voice though (especially on the start of Carousel), albeit he really did sound strained and like he was having a difficult time.

Today's LSS:
Blister in the Sun - Violent Femmes
Sorry - Buckcherry
Drive - Incubus
Teddy Picker - Arctic Monkeys (are they ever going here???)


Our CVE teacher asking something whose answer is Godforsaken. I mean wheretheheck will I find the political state of Nazareth during Jesus' time?

I mean if Wikipedia doesn't have it, I doubt anything else does.

And I don't get this campaign against WikiPedia. I mean, it's not official alllriiight,and there's 99.9% chance that atleast 30% in your class is going to cite it as a source, but you have to give it to them, they do have EVERYTHING. (Even articles about my future familia, but that is besides the point.) And it's not like we have the time to spend on libraries or anything, and hell, it's not my fault the whole vibe of the library is just sleepy and tired and totally not inviting. Besides, it's nakakatamad. Also, some websites find it insanely difficult to navigate into them.

It would be nice to go back to the time when all people used libraries, though. Good chance to see your crush right there. Like in those kilig scenes in cheesy movies. You're looking for the same book and *poof*, your crush is right there, on the opposite side, holding the same thing.



OHHHHH Maroon 5, I've been dying to reach you, but my extension cord doesn't reach that far!!!

Am I willing to shell 5000 bucks for a ticket?

That's like 2 Zara jackets on the way, bebe.

No, actually, the question is, is my MUM willing to shell 5000 bucks for a ticket?

The answer is, NO. (I know, despite my speech on how much I've been a Maroon 5 fan since they first came out evaaaah. Okay, I haven't recited that speech to her yet, but I probably will. No actually, the point is moot. She's gonna say no anyways, and then SHE'S going to start on her speech about Keep.It.Simple.Sister KISS speech and how much money we're spending and how we can't make our future house perfect if we keep on spending.)

Hmmm. I think moms go to an annual nagger's convention. Does your mom nag??? I can totally imagine it, with talks like: how to annoy your kid, breathing techniques so you can talk endlessly, how to con your kids into doing errands for you. And then they'd give out freebies, like How I Nattered My Mouth Away : a true story; the official nagger's mike, nagging 101 and stuff like that.

I should stop, I'm getting corny.

Anyways. Thinking if I should go to NeYo's or Incubus' concert instead...

...And ditch Adam Levine? No no no, ay don't think so. But I have to ATLEAST go to one of those 3 concerts. NeYo or Incubus?

I mean NeYo's songs are chill, but they're like...kind of...ehr...not so nice lyrics-wise, but I like NeYo 'cause he's suave, and really good-looking for an African-American dude. Diba?

Incubus naman, I like them too, pero I don't know much of their songs. I mean their songs don't really make me click, if you know what I'm saying. I love love DRIVE, though. I was singing it kanina. Woo.

But Maroon 5, ohhh Maroon 5!!! Grabe. My super all-time favorite song from them is Sunday Morning . It's got a chill, jazzy factor and I love that. And Adam Levine is really sexy and groovy. He's a groovy bloke. Bloke. Teehee. :)


Oh no, P.E. day today. We have track and field. I don't know why I quite dislike PE day so much. I mean it's not like I'm a slow runner or anything, I run pretty fast. I just find it a hustle and a bustle. I have to bring so much stuff, and then I hate feeling sticky and sweaty. Hate it.

And then we get dismissed pretty late. And that...grrr.

Ahwell. I'd bet Thursday's not gonna be a nice day, as usual.




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Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Watching? was watching something kanina but paused it for a while.

I would very much want this to be a substantial post, but because...

a) I'm not talented in the substantial post area
b) I hate when I tend to become dramatic
c) I've got nothing substantial to say anyways...

this won't be a substantial post. :)

I need to make money. I don't know how, but I know I want to. I'm determined to do so.
It's not like we're getting poorer and poorer or anything, it's just that we need to save up if we want our house to be as nice and as perfect as we want it to be (we're planning to renovate during the summer). So no mucho unnecessarcy spendy-o, just the needs...and the occassional wants.

Right now, I have so much things jotted on my want list, I need to be making money fast if I want to buy those things before the fly off the racks.

So how will I make more money-o, besides saving and doing the spreadsheets for my mum?


I'm jealous of the people who know what they want, and know how to get it. The people who have direction, or at least an idea of where they want to be in the future.

I,the one who usually knows what she wants and gets it somehow...don't actually know what I want. There are so many options, so many things to consider...

And then they tell me to do what makes me happy. So if I really decide to pursue what makes me happy right now, will it make me happy in the future, even if the salary is meager? But if I pursue something that I'm not really good at, but I'm willing to work for...will it make me happy, even if it gives me all the money that I want?

Haaay nako. I'm only in second year and I have to think about these things.


*edit @ 4:47 pm

nakoooo naman! the MAROON 5 tickets are freaking sold out! well the ones I could afford.. The next ones are good seats, pero by God,they're more expensive than 2 Zara jackets. Holy momma. I hope my mum gets tickets,though. :) And then there's NeYo pa. And then Incubus... AAAGh bat sunod-sunod silaaaaa?!?!?!?!




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Friday, January 25, 2008

surveys from Chloe...
Listening to:
Sexx Laws - Beck (I love Beck. :) )


Following surveys are from Celine Chloe Lopez


What section were you?
~ section 16, St. Anscar, bebe.

Who was your adviser?
~ Miss Melanie Marcos, woohooooooo!

How many were you in one class?
~ i forgot. hahah. safe bet...42??? I'll check the attendance sheet sometime.

Who was your seatmate?
~ Seatmates. Hah. 1st-2nd quarter...Renzo and Norman (and Erika. :P) 3rd quarter is Josh and Carl. 4th quarter is Hazel and Barbie.

Still remember your english teacher?
~ Miss Marcos! Yehey.

What was your first class?
~ Depends on which day. I remember having Math first on Fridays.

Who was/were your best friend/s
~ I don't actually have bestfriends, it comes with some sort of commitment with each other. Kinda like marriage. But I had an insane amount of close friends... :D

Who did you like?


Do you have any enemies?
~ hmm. I don't think so.

Who was your favorite teacher?
~ Miss Marcos. :)

What sports did you play?
~ Played volleyball, arnis, swimming and... and... I forgot for PE. :)

Do you buy your lunch?
~ Yeah. :) I should start making baon to save up.

Were you a party animal?
~ HAHAH. No.

Can you still sing the alma mater?
~ Oh, we still sing it most of the time.

What was your favorite subject?
~ English. I liked CVE too, always games and stuff. P.A. Food Technology was fun. Super muffin macaroon memories.

What was your school's full name?
~ San Beda College Alabang \m/

If you could go back in time and do it all over, would you?
~ Hell yeah.

What do you remember most about 1st year?
~ Oh God ang daming memories. Aivi's "Miss, how about ageing?" (on ageing being a chemical or a physical reaction); Farewell party ; when Miss cried in front of us (I was absent, thank God or I couldn't have been able to get it); the pokpok thing going on ; when team SBC Mendiola came over (haaaaljamal. :) ) HAHAH. Of course, the late trips home. And morning assemblies, grabe.

Favorite memory in 1st year?
~ Favorite memory. Ang dami, 'cause almost everything was a first. Probably the Farewell party. Haha.

Worst memory in 1st year?
~ Ayy nakooo.

Where did you go most often for break?
~ The gate 6 gazeebo.

What did you do on the last day of class?
~ Last day of classes. Fancy that, I can't even remember!!! Ohhh right. Final exams nun eh.

Did you like 1st year?
~ You kidding?

If you were given a chance to change something that happened on 1st year...would you?
~ Hmmmm. Lemme get back on this one.



1. Who sits to the right of you in English?
+ the wall. and the window. and the lovely view of trees and our brown field.

2. Last text you received on your mobile?
+ si daddy paul. who doesn't even know i'm the one who's texting. he probably stopped replying 'cause he got annoyed. HAHA.

3 . If you could kiss snog anyone who would it be?
+ not really in the mood to think about these things. damnit. but since you asked (HAHAHAH)... penn badgely would be a good candidate.

6. Last movie you watched?
+ The Bee Movie, bebe.

7. Which of your friends lives closest to you?
+ My neighbors are my friends. But besides them, probably Angelique.

8. What CD is in your stereo?
+ The Beatles' Love Anthology. Wooo.

9. Do you have a job?
+ I do spreadsheets for my mum to keep track of the money we're spending and the receipts and the crazy boring stuff.

10. What did you do yesterday?
+ Ate KFC... became devastated and then bounced back in RECORD time.

12. What Are You Thinking Right Now?
+ the answer that I had to the last question that I answered. The reason for the devastation, and the awe on how I managed to bounce back in a span of hours.

14. When someone doesn't like someone it's because?
+ just because. many reasons. like chloe's, not their definition of cool.

15. Do you trust your friends?
+ yes.

16. Who was the last person to call you?
+ my mum, regarding the KFC i asked her to buy. (I'm in a bad mood.)

17. What annoys you?
+ everything in the world annoys me right now.

18. Would you move to another state or country to be with the one you love?
+ no. he's an idiot.

19. Next vacation you're going on?
+ hopefully somewhere nice. i'm DYING to get out of here.

20. Do you play any instruments?
+ technically. no.

21. Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
+ yeah. it's crap, but yeah.

23. Can you roll your R's?
+ vutever do you mean?

24. Did you ever go to Prom?
+ prom will be next year, bebe.

25. Look out the window, what do you see?
+ i'm too lazy to go out and look out the window.

26. What are your nicknames?
+ vicky, beekee, motha, mommah, bikturia, isabel

27. Last time you went to the mall?
+ last sunday. no no no last monday.

28. Who last IM'd you?
+ i don't know. i'm on outcast mode. probably Erika, with her virus thing going on.

29. What kind of music do you like?
+ i don't know. i like all kinds of stuff. i love the ramones. the kkk took my bebe awaaaaay wooo.

30. What was the last thing you ate?
+ french fries @ 4 pm.

31. Do you have a crush on anyone?
+ yeah. but both of them are taken. marco's like...courting someone and five's like...matagal nang taken. soooo. yeah.

32. What's your favorite beverage?
+ water. coke. nestea ice. lemonade. iced tea. pepsi. vodka mudslide HAHAHAHA. KIDDING!!!

35. Would you stop talking to your friend if they started hooking up with your boyfriend/girlfriend ?
+ let's not even go there.

36. Do people ever spell your name wrong?
+ nope.

37. What's the last compliment you received?
+ i...don't know.

38. Are you watching tv?
+ my back is turned to the TV. so go figure.

39. What are some features you find most attractive in the opposite sex?
+ like...physical features? i like big guys. :)) and nice eyes. and the hair counts. and the nice eyes.
oooh crinkly eyes...sleepy eyes...doe eyes. broad shoulders. nice style. taste in music. a good conversation.

40. When is the last time you spent the night at someone's house?
+ hum. matagal na.

41. When was the last time you were extremely disappointed?
+ yesterday?

1. iPod
2. school things
3. cellie
4. hairbrush
5. the journal that will change my life
6. postits
7. 1/2 crosswise and 1/4 pad


1. Do you like anyone?
+ hum. yeah?

2. Does someone like you?
+ dunno. don't even want to think about it.

3. Last real crush?
+ these questions are treading on dangerous grounds.

4. Been lead on?
+ i'd like to think not.

5. Been cheated on?
+ hell no. BABARILIN KO kung sino man manloko sakin.

6. Want a relationship?
+ right at this moment, surprise. NO. not in the mood.

7. Wanna get married?
+ oo. oo. :))


1. my future husband. whoever that is.
2. huh. my mother's premier candidate for son-in-law (STILL? after all that happened?)
3. why no one's texting me. i'm bored and i need to talk to someone. anyone. anyone who has credits.
4. how great this day started and how awful it ended.
5. Ashley Tisdale (he said you're amazing woooooooo HAHAHA)
6. oh no oh no why can't they contact
7. how bubblegum pop ashley tisdale's music is.


Do You:
1. Believe in God?
+ Yeah. But'm confused. but i know he's there. I still talk to him once in a while. I suck.

2. Had a dream come true?
+ NOOO and I've been having such nice dreams lately. Oh yeahhh oo. Like premonition-type things.

3. Read the newspaper?
+ I read the lifestyle section and whatnots.

4. Pray?
+ haaaaay. yes.

5. Have a job?
+ as my mum's not-so-official secretary.

6. Have braces?
+ yes. hopefully, by march, i'll have them taken out.

7. Have any pets?
+ oh, we have 6 goldfishes, 4 dogs and 2 turtles. and a little sister. :))


1. Fallen in love?
+ ha.ha. no.

2. Hated someone?
+ :))

3. Swam in the dark?
+ yeah.

4. Been to a bonfire party?
+ yeah. i think so. yeah.

5. Ran away from home?
+ nope. hahah. and if i did, where would i go?

6. Played strip poker?
+ hahahah no.

7 . Pulled an all nighter?
+ yeah!


1. Cried?
+ no. surprising, considering what happened.

2. Had fun?
+ yeah. i was having ultra-hyper time kanina.

3. Been kissed?
+ like the ones that count? nope

4. Felt stupid?
+ feeling like a fool RIGHT NOW.

5. Talked to an ex?
+ since i don't have anyone yet (atleast anyone who counts)... let's talk about ex-crushes. well i often punch nicole in the arm, and i scream at him the whole time. so yeah. i'm kidding about the screaming thing.

6. Missed someone?
+ oo,grabe.

7. Hugged someone?
+ grabe naman. has someone NEVER hugged someone else?


1. Do you consider yourself kind?

+ yeah. i'm a kind person.

2. Do you consider yourself moral?
+ moral. i curse a lot. so on some points yeah, some points no.

3. Do you consider yourself honest?
+ most of the time.

4. Do you hold any prejudices?
+ hahah doesn't everyone?

5. Are you spiritual or religious?
+ no. not yet.

6. Philosophical?
+ in what way? somehow I guess so.

7. Would you steal under any circumstance?
+ no. skwater naman.


1. Do you think you were well raised?
+ yeeeeah. go mummy.

2. Do you have a secret that you've never told ANYONE?
+ i don't know. i don't think so. OH YEAH I DO.

3. How do you handle stress?
+ write. soundtrip...depending on the situation. when i'm in a bad mood, i listen to really loud, really rock music (hello avenged sevenfold.) when i'm in a sad mood, i listen to this compilation of songs i keep if ever i need to cry or anything. When i'm under pressure...well I work well under pressure.

4. How would you spend your last day alive?
+ i'd LOVE to live each day like it's my last, but unfortunately, circumstances won't allow me. whyever not? well there are just somethings that can't be aired out for public viewing. :P

5. Do you hide things well or do you have a guilty conscience?
+ hide well. insanely well.

6 . If there was true love on one side of the street and a million bucks on the other side, which one would you go to?
+ million bucks. i've had enough with love. (HAHAH CYNIC!!!!)

7. If your parents got divorced and you had to pick mom or dad to live with?
+ mum. already am. but they're not divorced.

8. If you had to choose between having one family member or 5 of your closest friends to die who would you choose?
+ i'd choose my iPod, so I wouldn't have to choose between them.

9. Do you think you could ever forgive someone who murdered a family member?
+ oh no. i don't think so. i'd kill him with a gun.

10. What is the worst thing you've ever done that your parents DON'T know about?
+ i'll tell you, but then i might have to kill you. kidding aside, i think i haven't done anything bad that they don't know about.


1. Die in a fire or drown?
+ how awful!!!

3. Eat fried worms or chocolate ants?
+ choco ants. ants are much smaller and they're not skweeshee and skweegly and the ants are sometimes insanely small, you don't see them.

4. If you lived a disaster...would you rather have been on Titanic or lived during the holocaust and be a Jew?
+ neither. i'd like to stay happy, please.

5. If your boyfriend/girlfriend didn't like your best friend and told you to be with them or your best friend, who would you chose?
+ bestfriend. what kind of a-hole,sh*t-head boyfriend would ask that?

6 . Would you rather be hated for who you are or loved for who you're not?
+ hated for who i am. atleast i don't have to keep up with pretenses.

7. Kids then marriage or marriage then kids?
+ marriage then kids.

8. If you had to choose between being blind or deaf which would you pick?
+ wala. blind means i wont be able to see the beauty of our world and not be able to make graphics and stuff. being deaf means losing what means the most to me. music.

9. Would you rather live in a tiny apartment with 5 other people or a huge mansion alone?
+ tiny apartment. what's the use for a huge mansion when you're all alowney on your owney? that's insane. besides, the more the manyer. nge.

10. Would you rather date someone who had a car or a job?
+ a job. then he'd be able to buy a car. diba? ;)


1. Do you kick it with the same people always...or new people?
+ usually always the same people.

2. What is your greatest accomplishment?
+ greatest accomplishment. 2 unprecedented years of WHAAAT? God that was a weird moment. greatest accomplishment. hmm. let me get back on this one.

3. Do you see yourself as a "good" person?
+ yes.

4. Do you think best friends can be replaced?
+ no.

5. Name five people *not family* that you can tell ANYTHING to
1. angelique
2. angeli
3. barbie
4. hazel
5. madelyn
(carl should also be in this list.)

6. Are you the type that would rather stay at other peoples' houses or have them at yours?
+ both. though they're often at my place. :))

7. HONESTLY - have you ever wanted to watch a scary movie with someone JUST to have an excuse to be close to them?
+ OO HAHAHAH how funny is that. ekshwali, i was fantasizing about that.

8. Is your family the eat-dinner-at-the-table type or the get-your-food-and-eat-wherever-you-want type?
+ definitely eat dinner at the table...especially when mum's around. when she's not, you'll usually find me parked in front of the TV. hahah.

Surveys are fun. I don't want them to end. :(


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bs post.
Watching? Local Wheel of Fortune. (Kris is quite annoying as a host. I'd rather Edu Manzano to be up there. He's entertaining.)


Bloody bugger hell.

How shitty do I feel right now? Oh, I don't know. I just feel like I'm in a mudbath of shit, that's what.

Nothing even happened today. I've got much more excuse to be sad yesterday than to be freaking sad today.


Surprisingly, yesterday's apparent reason for sadness doesn't seem to have any adverse effect on me. I mean...I don't know. I'm chill.


I feel empty. I honestly do. What do I do with my life now?

I want to be busy. I need to be distracted. I atleast NEED to do something with my life. 'Cause I don't know what I want, and there'll always be this empty void in me.

Yeah, yeah that's right. I have to do something. But it's too late to get involved in anything at school now, after all, we've only got a few months before the summer vacay begins.

Oh, I can't wait for summer. I want to do something with my hands and get busy and stuff like that. I just to move around the metro and do so much things I'd get so busy I won't have time to think of anything anymore.

Because seriously. The last thing I NEED right now is more thinking.

I think too much. It's insane.


And finally, an update on which course I'll choose in college.

Guess what.

I'm more confused than ever.

So I was so set on taking up something like MassCom or Advertising. And then my mum told me some stuff and so I became unsettled. And then I was thinking of Law. And then here comes a newbie. Industrial Management Engineering.

Sounds cool. But I'm bothered by the Engineering part. I mean Engineering requires a lot of number work, and God knows how bad I am at that.

Hmmm. Maybe not so much. I just like putting myself down on that aspect, that's all. I mean I do enjoy solving Math and stuff, I just find it scary when the exams come. We're under time pressure, and of course, you have to worry if you're doing it right.

God help me this Tuesday.

So there. Not much of an update, really. Just telling you how shitty I feel. T_T


I need to add spice in my life.

Or maybe I need to add spice on how I put down my life.

Hm. Maybe I'll give the blog a make-over.

Or maybe...

I'll just eat and hound the ice cream and be back with something much more juicy.


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Sunday, January 20, 2008

maria victoria isabel. again.
Listening to:
Ego - The Sounds
Can We Chill - Ne-Yo
Hate That I Love You - Rihanna ft. Ne-Yo
With You - Chris Brown
You entered: Maria Victoria Isabel Catilo Marquez
There are 32 letters in your name.
Those 32 letters total to 150
There are 16 vowels and 16 consonants in your name.

What your first name means:Swedish Female Bitter.
Spanish Female Bitter.
Shakespearean Female 'Love's Labours Lost' A lady attending on the Princess of France. 'Twelfth Night', also called 'What You Will' Olivia's waiting woman.
Norse Female Name not originally Norse but it appears in several sagas and is the name of King Harald Sigurdsson's daughter.
Latin Female Commonly-used variant of Mary: Wished-for child; rebellion; bitter. Popular with both Spanish and non-Spanish cultures.
Italian Female Bitter.
Hebrew Female Variant of Mary: Wished-for child; rebellion; bitter.
German Female Bitter.
French Female Bitter.

Your number is: 6

The characteristics of #6 are: Responsibility, protection, nurturing, community, balance, sympathy.

The expression or destiny for #6:
The number 6 Expression provides you a truly outstanding sense of responsibility, love, and balance. The 6 is helpful and ever conscientious, making you quite capable of rectifying and balancing any sort of inharmonious situation. You are a person very much inclined to give help and comfort to those in need. You have a natural penchant for working with the old, the young, the sick, or the underprivileged. Although you may have considerable creative and artistic talents, the chances are that you will devote yourself to an occupation that shows concern for the betterment of the community.

The positive side of the number 6 suggests that you are very loving, friendly, and appreciative of others. You have a depth of understanding that produces much sympathetic, kindness, and generosity. The qualities of the 6 make the finest and most concerned parent and one often deeply involved in domestic activities. Openness and honesty is apparent in your approach to all relationships.

If there is an excess of the number 6 in your makeup, you may exhibit some of the negative traits associated with this number. There may be a tendency for you to be too exacting and demanding of yourself. In this regard, you may at times sacrifice yourself (or your loved ones) for the welfare of others. In some cases, the over zealous 6 has difficulty distinguishing helping from interfering. You may have difficulty expressing your own individuality, because of involvement with responsibilities and causes. Like all with the Expression of the number 6, it's quite likely that you worry much too much.

Your Soul Urge number is: 4

A Soul Urge number of 4 means:
With the Soul Urge or Motivation number of 4 you are likely to strive for a stable life. You tend to follow a rather orderly pattern and systematic approach in your endeavors. You have an inner desire to serve others in a methodical and diligent manner. You want to be in solid, conventional, and well-regulated activities, and you are somewhat disturbed by innovation and erratic or sudden changes. Excellent at organizing, systematizing, and managing, you have a way of establishing order and maintaining it. You are responsible, reliable and in the final analysis, practical. Highly analytical, you can see your way through all sorts of situations and generally have a clear understanding of the issues. You are a very honest, sincere, and conscientious individual.

The negative side of the 4 is rigid, stubborn and somewhat narrow-minded. There is a tendency to hide feelings, or to really not be aware of real feelings. Avoid being too rigid and stubborn in your thinking, and try to always see the big picture rather than becoming to involved with the detail. Don't be afraid to take a chance once in awhile.

Your Inner Dream number is: 11

An Inner Dream number of 11 means:
You dream of casting the light of illumination; of being the true idealist. You secretly believe there is more to life than we can know or prove, and you would like to be provider of the 'word' from on high.

Ha. Rebel pala ah.




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borderline insanity.
Listening to:
Sunday Mornings - Maroon 5
[I need to calm down. This is obviously not the kind of music I should listen to to calm down]
With You - Chris Brown

I am this close to insanity...*holds out the index finger and thumb with atleast 1 inch difference lol*. I really am. I feel insanely's insane.


I mean I know why I'm feeling quite bothered and unsettled, but I don't seem to be able to justify the feeling. I feel the need to validate that the feeling is real, and it's right, and it HAS TO HAVE SOME FREAKING REASON. It doesn't make any sense!


Haaay. Might need to talk to my heart and mind nanaman.


WAAAAAH there are so many pent-up energy inside me that I don't know how to release. One part of me wants to stay still 'cause I'm tired from the long walk from the procession kanina, the other part wants to scream and shout and just be plain hyper.

Pano yun. Tulog lahat ng tayo sa bahay. Nobody to bug.

Oooooh this sucksssssss. T_T

I'm so torn up in the sense that I don't know what I'm feeling and why, and I don't know what to do anymore. Aaaaargh....


In any case, I need to concentrate at the task at hand. I am now being paid to input all the billings and etc stuff in a spreadsheet in Excel. Really, insanely boring stuff. Also included in the job is the constant feeling of guilt because of the money that we're really spending. It's insane.

But like HELL, I'm getting paid for this, so yeah.

Good luck on concentrating. ;) I quite have an ADD (attention deficit disorder) thing going on. A mild case, maybe. I always am distracted.

I KNOW I should have listened to Sir Jamby rambling on about those spreadsheets and whatnots.

Kids, listen to your computer teacher always.

edit//@ 10:20

Hahahahah I have a new kid on the roster: McDaddy!!!
Say hello to Migs, Marco and Eeyore. How insane is that. McDaddy. Ambaho. Obviously uninspired.

But atleast Mr. McDaddy man is different among the three of them!!! He's kind of a softy kinda man, and he's...not so hardcore. How INSANE. Kaya nga McDaddy eh. It doesn't necessarily imply that he's the dad to my *ehem* kids... ang McDaddy lang talaga ng dating...

Oh, I love it. :)

I finally found the song that could calm me down.
Shhhhh lang.
San ka pa, it makes me smile too!!! Haha. It's a sweet song, in all fairness.

It's just so funny eh. Maybe that's what makes me smile.

I should stoppp wooo concentrate concentrate on the spreadsheet.

Concentrate on the damn spreadsheet, damnit.

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Saturday, January 19, 2008

Listening to:
Teddy Picker - Arctic Monkeys (super favorite)
Eleanor Rigby - the Beatles
Julia - the Beatles (hahah julia santos.)
I Am The Walrus - the Beatles

If you have multiply accounts, please add mine up. i'm now off the anti-social phase. yes now. i've been updating too. :P


Multiply-speaking, it's really amusing when guys have multiply accounts. No artes, just posting and good fun. ;)

chiara's batch

chiara and her friend, agatha

Went to school to check out my younger sister's field demo.

Haay grabe, to be gradeschool once again.

Field demonstrations are an annual activity by the Preschoolers and Gradeschoolers of Levels 3-12 (meaning grades 1-5) where all students dance complete with costumes and songs and whatnots in the name of the Sto. Nino.

I didn't know what the hell the theme is for my sister's dance, but it was nice.

I LOVED LOVED LOVED the prep students' performance, grabe. The little mexicanos and mexicanas. It's insane.

prep kids clad in their ponchos and mexican outfits.

work it, bebe.

Hmmm, I'm thinking if I'd actually go to school tomorrow just to see the younger kiddos perform. They're much nicer to watch, 'cause they give it their everything, and they move...walang kaartehan, walang pacute, walang pacool. Lahat cute, lahat cool. And it'd be interesting to see what themes they'd come up with.

Not to mention they're insanely, insatiably ADORABLE especially when they smile with their costumes on. Most especially when they sport the all-i-want-for-christmas-is-my-two-front-teeth smile. Grabe talaga. I couldn't stop gushing kanina. The little chicanos and chicanas. Ahhhh, it kills. Ang cute cute cute cute cute cute talagaaaaaah.

Babies and cute kids are my super, ultimate weakness. Grabe. They always make me smile.

The only thing is...well it requires me to wake up early on a Sunday morning to actually see all the kids' performances. Nakakatamad. I don't usually wake up early on Sunday Mornings.

Ohwell. Sabi ni Batman, siya na bahala.

Some people make it so hard to be nice to them, no? The world is full of misunderstandings and misinterpretations, it would be better to lay all your cards in the table.

But it's not like there's any game. And if there is, who's playing? What are the rules? Who the hell is my opponent? Another person?...or merely...myself?

I'm just being nice nga eh, what, I ask, is wrong with that?

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Saturday, January 12, 2008

to bee or not to bee...the beekee analeesees.
Listening to: Drive my Car - The Beatles (hmm. I'm actually listening to their Love Anthology Album)
Lyrics Love: All the lonely people, where do they all come from? All the lonely people, where do they all belong? (Eleanor Rigby - The Beatles)

Favorite Word of the Moment: Insane (as in... That is just insane. That is insanely insane. How insane.)


Give me a moment to ponder on my temperorary insanity.

How an insane number of surreal things can happen to me repeatedly, I know not.

I don't know how to react anymore...or if I should even react.

Be careful with what you wish for, you just might get it.

Be careful with what you wish for,

I might get the thing that asthmatic people use when they're out of breath.

I constantly found myself out of breath lately, and believe me, the reasons are not of medical roots.
a super insane and accurate quiz! zomg!!!

What Maria Victoria Isabel Means

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.
You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.
You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are very hyper. You never slow down, even when it's killing you.
You're the type of person who can be a workaholic during the day... and still have the energy to party all night.
Your energy is definitely a magnet for those around you. People are addicted to your vibe.

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.
You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.
A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.
You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.
You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.
You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.
At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous.
You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things.
Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

How insane.

If you read it, you'd actually find out that I am a world of conflicts.
I'm just glad that someone's got the heart (and the super technical skills and psychological name language) to put it down for me. I love love love it!!!!.

Initially, I deleted the link to the quiz. But I thought of it as quite selfish. Who am I to deprive people to have the same privilege to have their personality put down based on their names?


An analysis of the personality-name-analysis.

1. I do work hard for what I insanely want, and I'm willing to learn how to throw daggers ala-Ziyi Zhang just so I could aim for the right person who gets in my way.

2. It is not true that I am the best at everything. And yet, that could only be because I lack the ability to care for things I believe not worthy of the time and effort and the pain. Tsk.

3. But I am confident (or i would like to believe so), authoritative (i have the natural inclination to be) and aggressive (hmmm...talaga?).

4. I am not quite the huge rebel, but what do you know, maybe the huge rebel's dying the break out. I believe it exists within me.

5. I am intense, and I could be quite a handful, which is why I value my friends so much. No one knows me like they do, and so they know how to react to Vicky.

6. It's insane how they got this right - I get excited easily, but the enthusiasm quickly fades away. I do have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short time, and if I don't accomplish the things that I need to do within the prescribed time, I just cease to care. Thus, the problem being, me finishing what I actually started (I actually celebrate when I get to finish everything in my To Do List)

7. As for me being a party animal...We'll see. :) But I am hyper when I choose to be. Oh, I'm insanely hyper when I choose to be.

8. Grabe this meme is freaking me out, it's got everything right. I am open...quite the open book, really. Everybody knows atleast something about me...That is, when I let them.

9. My chameleon-like abilities (aka adaptability) is one of my strongest assets, according to my EQ test way back in elementary. And I'd bet it still is.

10. It is true that I ask so much about life, but I don't know if anyone doesn't. Maybe I just ask twice as many questions as the next person (besides Miguel). I do like travelling, but I guess there's still nothing quite like home. I mean I do get more comfortable when somewhere else (relatively, of course) but home is home. Home's where the heart is.

11. I am well-rounded, solid (one,two,three SOLLLEEEHDD!), dependable and loyal. I don't know if I get too serious sometimes, I always find time for a good laugh.

12. As for me being the total package : suave, sexy and smart...well... what did they say about accepting compliments? Never deny, always say Thank You. :)

13. As for me having the whole world under my whole spell... Well, maybe the whole world besides three people. :)) Or...maybe not.

14. As for crushing the weak... I haven't crushed anyone lately. Or none that I know of... Or maybe there are people I've crushed, I just don't know about it yet. If ever that I have, I am really really sorry. It's just my nature. The Hulk. HAHA.

15. I am bold and daring...oftentimes I just don't show it. My high energy always gets me in trouble.

16. And yes, my temper is quite legendary. But I'd bet it'd be hard for people to believe that I haven't actually reached the brink of my temper. I've gotten INSANELY annoyed, and people mistake that for being angry. Nope, I just realized lately I haven't been angry publicly. Hirap paniwalaan. Imagine. If that was just me being insanely annoyed, imagine how I will be when intensely angry. Haha, bigla mo makikita si Vicky kulay green with her clothes ripped to smithereens.

17. I am friendly and warm. Charming? Maybe. As for rocking the boat easily...well... :)

18. Holy SH*T. I am flaky and irresponsible SOMETIMES!!! But I pull off the important things together!!!

19. And yes, I am the epitome of chill (except under some circumstances). I was chill kahit na ambaho na nung CR, which actually reduced me to tears. I am lighthearted and accepting.

20. The secret to my wonderful life?




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Monday, January 7, 2008

unexpected twists and anxiety attacks
Listening to:
Take You There - Sean Kingston
3rd Measurement in C - Saosin
Bulimic - The Used
Slither - Velvet Revolver
Lunacy Fringe - The Used
Outta My Way - Damone
...ang dami. It's on shuffle, and I wasn't taking note of the songs cause I was busy baring my feelings here, for God's sake. WHAT?

Watching? was watching Grey's Anatomy a while ago, then I found out that I saw the episode already...the one where the girl is both...well boy and girl. She didn't find this out until her teen years, causing a dilemma and identity-crisis within her. I loved this episode because George was the freaking hero. :))

i really was supposed to talk about how my life can be mapped up with music. but i guess everything can't stay inside.

please read. i like this post. i know that's really narcissistic, but i really like it. it's like...vicky's soul...revealed! hahah wtf.


I don't understand why it's so freaking hard to keep things to myself. It's not that I feel the need to express my opinions on everything...even if it may seem so [that I express all my opinions], believe me, if I expressed all the time, I'd be the one getting the hate mails. I'd rather keep quiet sometimes, but those things regard things that are relatively trivial to me.

But like-related things? (like talaga, hindi love. tsk.)

Trust me to have a difficult time keeping things inside.

I should have known this would happen ever since the I-slept-but-woke-up-in-the-middle-of-the-night-staring-at-the-ceiling-thinking-of-somebody thing.

Grabe, it's so easy to wonder, to think about things, to plan. But when the real deal happens, you're just lost in time, in space, in the moment. You forget what you're supposed to do because your brain shuts out. You can't breathe, everything is turning around you, you're dizzy, and thinking, "This is bs. This is so freaking surreal."

And here I am,thinking that the those things only happen to the poets, to the singers, to the people who really are in love. Y'know, the OMG I can't breathe, my heart is beating its way outta my damned chest, the world is circling around me. I need air, I need to grasp on to something. I need somebody to tell me this isn't real. (Hahahah parang kanta) I guess it also happens to people in like.

Nangyayari pala talaga yun. I thought it was some sort of metaphoric, hyperbole thing going on. It really does happen, and it's quite funny, thinking of it right now.

Pero in the end? Kahit halos mamatay ka sa kaba, sa kawalan ng hangin...kahit pakiramdam mo malulunod ka na sa kawalan...

Masarap yung pakiramdam. When the unexpected happens (the good unexpected things, of course), it could be one of the greatest feelings in the whole wide universe. I highly recommend it. It could have you grinning for a week or so. In fact, I can swear by it that every time you remember the memory, no matter how painful, it will always make you smile (kahit humahagulgol ka na. pero hindi pa naman nangyayari sakin yun)

Sa una, masarap yung pakiramdam. But as everyone experienced enough, you'd better expect atleast something itsybitsyteenyweeny(yellowpolkadotbikini...nge.) bad to happen.

Here comes...tentenenen!!! Anxiety attack!!!

The complete opposite of the Unexpected feeling. It leaves you with a sharp stab in the chest, leaving you sleepless and drowning--not with glee and joy,mind you--but with buckets of your tears that seem to have streamed their way out of the corners of your eyes. Ikaw naman parang... Oy, san nanggaling yun? Yihee, in denial. Of course you know where it comes from.

The Anxiety Attack may want you to do the blade maneuver, where you reach out for the blade and you slash your skin, just to eliminate the pain and to actually trick your mind into thinking that it's okay, or whatever, that the pain is not there. If you do this, please please stop. Not only do you hurt yourself, but you, subconsciously, hurt other people as well.

The Anxiety Attack might render you restless and hopeless, amongst the bowls of ice cream, sweets and KFC HotShots and Clover Chips... (hindi pa naman to nangyayari sakin, pero ito ang mga food of choice ko, IF EVER that I want to binge eat.)

Or, in my case, the AA (ang haba na ng Anxiety Attack eh.) leaves you... feeling alone, even if you really aren't. You're just alone because you're letting yourself be alone, I later on realized. But still, I have the nagging feeling na unti-unti na akong nagiging bato. Alam mo yun, quite a lot like overexposed bread? When bread is left out on the air for a long time, it becomes hard...really hard. It scares me that someday, it might render me numb. But I think I'd always rather feel pain than be numb. Pain makes me more of a human. Anyways, pain is always there, for people to experience, for people to learn from. I may hate the pain while going through it, pero it's better than not feeling anything. 'Cause when some parts of you become guarded, you build a wall around you, and God knows what will happen. Quite a lot like those issues with Dr. Phil and Oprah and Tyra. When you build a damn wall, you lose opportunities. Opportunities to meet people, to do extraordinary things.

I don't want to be locked, guarded within a wall. I always loved that about being trusting...quite an open-book. While not overly so, I am always ready to share my life to someone else out there who cares.

Atleast I'm rational enough to bounce back from my anxiety attacks.

But the What Ifs... are really dangerous. What if it just happened? A freaking coinkydink (coincidence)?? What if this and that? Usually, the what ifs leave me helpless, screaming at random people (hi nicole), my brain just pounding, thinking too fast, once again the heart-being stabbed-thing happening.

I mean, for a while, it's okay not to care, it's okay to dismiss the problems. But when it's something na for reals, it'll come back to you, and you're forced to think about it, just because you really need to. To sort things out.

You can't hide from everything.

It's really really ironic and quite funny when sometimes, what we're hiding from is the one within us.

You can't run away from that.


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Thursday, January 3, 2008

looove looove looove. :) beatlemania,bebe.
Listening to:
All You Need is Love - The Beatles
Hey Jude - The Beatles
Yellow Submarine - The Beatles
Lucy in the Sky With Diamonds - The Beatles

LSS? We all live in a yellow submarine, a yellow submarine, a yellow submarine... :D
Beatles trip na, dude. I feel so good now.

You know what, I feel highly obligated to tell you that this is my third post, I erased my last two posts (prior to posting it, of course.) and then I read Patty Laurel's blog (I regularly check eh. :P Guilty pleasure?) and I realized that I should just be happy and chiiiilll man. I actually felt better about ranting about how much I hated a song by Funeral for a Friend ...guess what song. I'm not in the mood to elicit negative responses from the people who like that song... I felt much better when I listened to Metallica (they always make me feel comforted. Like I've come home. Naks. ) and then I just gave up all the anger when I listened to All You Need is Love. It's such a nice song.

And then I laughed when I read Patty Laurel's blog,because she's really funny. I'm quite jealous of her because she's doing a EuroTrip, but not so because it's FREEZING out there. My uncles told me so.

But even if I feel good post-wise, I still feel annoyed with...ehr, I don't know. Just annoyed. With something. Someone. I don't know.

You know what, I just realized, the first part of All You Need is Love, before John Lennon or Paul McCartney or whoever was singing (I'm pretty sure it's one of them. I'Wikipedia mo kaya.), sounded much like a National Anthem. What, with the drumming and the trumpets.

And it should be a national anthem. I mean listen to the lyrics, now. Love is really all you need. All you really need is love. Love. Love. Love. :D And imagine how much Flag Ceremony would be much nicer and much more fun when you have that as a national anthem. Nakakaencourage kumanta, diba?

I'm so glad I've started appreciating The Beatles. Mucho thanks-o to Star World for presenting the making of The Beatles in Love Concert. I just realized that their songs were so full of soul and emotion, it's not entirely hard to project that in acrobatics and graphics and presentations. It was amazing.

credits to for the picture

I Love the Beatles' hair. I would marry a guy with hair like Paul McCartney's or Ringo Starr's or John Lennon's or George Harrison's. Especially John Lennon's, since his hair seems to be different from all the four. Teka, si John Lennon ba yan? HAHA. And they all look really stylish and suave and cute in their tuxes and their guitars. Oh dear. I'm gushing about men old enough to be my grandfather. Eh bat ba, cute naman sila diyan eh.

I didn't like it when they grew their hair and moustaches. But I guess it's all for the sake of being older and maturer and looking so.

I really admire them. With a song comes another character, another story, another picture. It's got a lot of heart and soul in it...And besides, every song is different from the other. No pattern of some sort or anything. Just peace, love and happiness.

It's amazing how much music affects my moods...And the speed of its effectivity. :))


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